My mind seems insane
To everyone else
They claim to be blind
But the mirror does not lie
The dripping mascara
The screams from my chest
The pounding in my body
All silenced from the satisfactory
Feeling terrible is comforting
The dizziness
They are proud of me
I hear them cheering me on
They don’t understand
It’s eating me alive
Yelling at me
So much louder than you are
Who do I listen to?
I am doing it for you
He held her so tight
Like she was everything in the world
Sitting right there on his lap
She had raggedy long tangled hair
She used her palms to brush it out of her eyes
He used his fingers to pull it back
She seemed restless
So he kissed her forehead
She had a bright smile of innocence
She had so much ahead of her
And he was gonna be there for her
Holding her hand
Hugging her when she falls of her bike
When she has her first heartbreak
When she’s about to walk down the alter
He was going to be there
She didn’t realize how lucky she is
I wish I could tell her
I pray and hope she’s not going to be me
Sitting in a pew
Staring in envy
Wishing I could be that little girl
Being daddy’s girl
